Whenever a few days pile up on me and I have had no time to write, I suffer from a stage fright of sorts.  The opposite of writer’s block.  What would you call that?

It’s an overload.  Too many ideas.  Too many thoughts.  I don’t know where to start.

I feel the same way when my home gets out of control messy from a couple of busy days and a little neglect on the home front.  Where do I begin?

This week I have felt like a commuter bus, a taxi cab, an Uber ride.  I’ve used most of a tank of gas in two days just going back and forth and around on the same circuit.  The kids are in two different camps this week in two different directions.   I’m tired.  And I know this is the lot for a about a billion parents out there every day of the school year.  I tell you what, it is not fun.  I do not want to drive people everywhere for a living.  I’d resign.

So much to write about.  There’s crazy – a little lopsided stack of insane.  There’s good – loads of wonderful.  There’s mundane – the normal variety of mediocre.  There’s painful – the sliver and slips of hurt.  But tonight there aren’t the words all lining up.  The lists are too long to sort through. I am tired.  

I want to raise my little virtual hand and say “hi”.  

I also want my kids to go to sleep when I send them to bed and I want this cute new kitten to stop treating the kitchen table like a runway and I want the budget crunching for purchasing the next year’s round of homeschool supplies to match the money coming in and I want to kayak all day long with a mountain view.  I want last week’s to-do list to stop bleeding into this week’s to-do list and I want to eat chicken tikka masala for every meal.  I want two showers in our home and I want my twelve year old son to recognize the value of using shampoo.

Is that too much to ask for?

It is, isn’t it?

Well, here’s hoping a decent night’s rest and a little planned quiet time tomorrow will set me right and I’ll be back with new words after sorting through all the good and the regular and the heavy that I feel like writing about.

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