Story

not as you’d think

It seems there should be a time when sorrow ends.

When a door can close and an official Time of Death can be stamped.

Mirrors hung with black fabric and all the clocks stopped.

The End.

All announced and definitive.

Relationships don’t end that way though, do they?

All trimmed up and tidy.

Containable and compartmentalized.

I’ve never been witness to such a happening.

Instead it’s a feet-dragging-coming-in-through-the-back-door-I-thought-I-already-grieved-this-new-every-season kind of endless goodbye.

4 Comments

  • David

    When the Road Lies Hid from View
    When the road lies hid from view, God knows
    His perfect plan shall be revealed; We learn
    In our blindness, Divine wisdom; He shows
    His steadfast love and wondrous grace; We discern
    In suff’ring, His faithfulness; He bestows
    His blessing, virtue, glorious light; We yearn
    In darkness, try to understand why; He chose
    This way for us so hard, yet when we turn
    In obedient trust, Heaven comes down
    To give us a glimpse of home, and we see
    Our destination’s nearer than we knew.
    Believing we have lost our way, we frown,
    Yet find we’ve reached road’s end. How can it be?
    God knows, when the road lies hid from view.
    1/10/98

    Understand completely. Take courage.

  • Sara

    We hate it. God hates it even more.
    Because.
    His Plan is for relationship to remain
    Unbroken. Whole. Complete in Him.

    We stumble through the dark of non-relation, of separation
    And
    We pain, retch, beg
    We bargain, argue
    We think, attempt fixes

    And
    Finally

    We see Jesus

    The Relation Healer
    The Whole
    The Complete
    The Fix

    Oh, God.
    Our hearts ache. They break.
    For Lacey.
    For ourselves.
    We are such messes.
    We hate this sin that makes You
    mourn.

    We rebel against the original
    Rebellion. Of satan. Of Adam.
    We choose Relationship.
    We choose You.

    But, O God.
    We can’t relate even when we choose
    Relationship.
    Jesus, Help us.
    And
    Come quickly.

    Amen.