a prayer. sort of.
“I think I just love God more than anyone else in the world.”
That’s what Cece said my seven-year-old daughter told her one night in their cabins at camp this week.
And after the campfire, Cece said London also shared some more thoughts as they discussed the week of camp and the teachings they had heard.
“You know, if I was God, I wouldn’t want to save a sinner like me,” London told her.
And part of me feels my heart swell to near-implosion at the tender image of my little one thinking such deep and pure God thoughts.
And part of me reels in terror at the thought of my own personal real-life valley/mountain/valley/mountain walk with God crashing into her uncontaminated worldview.
How do I raise a daughter to not become a cynic –
when I have dabbled in those fires myself?
I don’t want to treat her emerging faith as simply child-like and miss the profound that it also is.
Does your heart ever cry,
“Please, God.
Don’t let me ruin this kid.”?
Because I fear that I could.
I know that I might.
If left to my own abilities.
If forced to rely upon my own resources.
Which is why all of this has to land elsewhere,
of course.
Right out of my own hands.
Directly out of my area of expertise.
At the very feet of something,
Someone,
so
much
more capable.
“Please, God.
Don’t let me ruin this kid.”
4 Comments
Jennifer Walter
"Please God. Don't let me ruin this kid." That exact thought passed through my mind this past weekend. And although I have no solution, words of wisdom, or advice – not already in your heart or previously stated. I thank you for sharing your thoughts. I felt a great sense of comfort knowing that I'm not alone in my prayer…Please know you aren't either.
josh
good. i;m there with ya
Helen Rutrough
Her heart shows her character and that she is learning much about God. I know most of that learning is coming from her teaching at home. We as parents must do what we humanly can and we put our trust in God to help us raise them according to His will. God expects our best but knows we are not perfect and does not expect perfection from us. Stay focused on THE one and keep up the good work.
TJ
Awesome photo. Awesome prayer.